I keep telling myself this cannot be real. Things like this don’t happen, especially to people like you. I’m almost bitter. Bitter that you could leave all of us so early and so easily. We were barely starting out in life. We’re so young, all of us, and we’re still searching for answers. What ran through your mind? It scares me to ponder all the possibilities. I can’t find it in myself to believe anything right now. I don’t know what to feel, what to say, what to think about everything that has come so suddenly and without warning. I feel dazed and numb from the initial shock. Acceptance of reality seems unreachable to me. Granted, that’s the only choice you left us though. I need some time. Give me some time yeah? I’ll make sense of this someday. I have never felt so lost and confused in my whole life. I don’t know how to let someone go like this. It’s as if you took everyone’s strength with you. In time, we’ll regain it. It’s just temporarily unavailable, right? Honestly, you are utterly cruel. I wish I could be as sympathetic and understanding as others have been, but I’m reluctant to give in to that. I’m reluctant to give in to this whole thing. I don’t want any of this. What does it matter though? My say doesn’t change anything. I sound almost childish, but that’s exactly what I feel I am throughout this whole ordeal. A child. Would that explain why I can’t seem to act appropriately and face this with a maturity that matches everyone else?